alright. I have been pretty purgey today which I don't feel to terrible about because my weight is still dropping but I do hate that my entire face is just one huge breakout. I need to wuit the purging. I told brandon that i've got some pretty serious eds and either he didnt fully get what i was saying or he is super super cool about it. hopefully he's super cool about it because i definitely don't need another man trying to tell me what to do. I weighed in at 121.2 this morning but I've been blacking out a lot so i need to eat a little. the unfortunate thing is that I can't ever just eat a little. it's all or nothing with me.

i'm wicked happy about the 121.2!!!

I ate some veggie burgers with ketchup, some marshmallows, and a few pieces of bread then purges them up but i wasn't positive that I got all of the bread and burger up so I took 3 laxies. I truly hope I don't get a huge huge huge belly bulge from it but I'm not too concerned.

yesterday I did 45 minutes of kickboxing class, an hour of super intense hip hop and about fifteen minutes of step. idk how much i burned but i bet it was a lot. today I'm meeting kelly for kickboxing a little later which will be refreshing. I love her (:

my immediate goal is to fast for the rest of the day. let's see how that works

I know I can stay strong!!