The only time that I'm happy is when I'm fasting but with my sister's craziness and the drama surrounding my life right now, I havent been able to fast like I should. I suck at restricting because I just throw it up. even if I only eat a half cup of greenbeans (yeah.. I love veggies) I either can't stop eating or I go straight to the wc and drink water til I'm full then throw it all up... wtf?
today I failed and it's not even noon.
breakfast:1 slimquick packet w/bottles water
lunch: 1 romaine salad w/carrots (decent) and raisins (no good)
shit ton of cookie dough and 6 freshly baked cookies.
see if you can spot the mistake
yeah.. I thought you probably could.
I don't know how to get myself back in control of what I'm putting in my body. I hate myself for my newly acquired habits and all I really want is to drink sq and water all day. I would be weightless, I would be perfect, and I would be pure.
I need tips on getting back on track. please?
love love love
B
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